Monthly Archives: March 2012

Music, Music, Music…


Today in class….

In my Honors English IV class we are beginning The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. To get some background on the book and the setting, Afghanistan, our teacher gave us a few handouts. One included the restrictions for Afghan men and women under Taliban rule. While these were all ridiculous, of course, one stuck out more than the rest: no one can listen to music. I’m sure you all know from my bio that music plays a key role in my life so this restriction left me dumbstruck.

Imagine a world without music….No lullaby to lull a fussy baby to slumber. No love songs to express your emotion. No “Happy Birthday” on your big day. No bouncing bass from open windows in the summertime. No piano lessons for children. No background tones in your favorite scary movie. No fiddles or banjos during a square-dance. No reason for iTunes. No dance parties. NO SONG. NO VOICE. NO MUSIC.

In Youth Choir, we sing a song called “The Awakening” by Joseph M. Martin. The lyrics of the song are truly incredible and I would encourage anyone to look it up on YouTube. It would give anyone sheer goosebumps! Here are a few stanzas:

No alleluia! Not one hosanna! No song of love! No lullaby!

And no choir sang to change the world; I dreamed a dream.

No pipers played, no dancers twirled; I dreamed a dream.

A silent dream. Awake, awake!

Awake, awake my soul and sing, the time for praise has come.

The silence of the night has passed; a new day has begun!

Let music never die in me; forever let my spirit sing!

Wherever void or dark is found let there be joy and glorious sound

Let music never die in me; forever let my spirit sing!

Let all our voices join as one to praise the Giver of the song.

Awake, awake! Let music live!

 As Stevie Wonder once said:

“Music is a world within itself, with a language we all understand.”

A silent world would be nothing short of a tragedy. ♥


Glimpses of Spring!


Spring Has Sprung! ♥

While today is quite overcast and dreary up here by the good ‘ol Lake Erie, the past two days have been quite sunny and warm with beautiful blue skies!

Good Weather + Spring Flowers = Great Photography Shoots! (:

Enjoy ♥

I’ll Be (:


“The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful stop me and steal my breath,

And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky, never revealing their depth.

Tell me that we belong together, dress it up with the trappings of love.

I’ll be captivated, I’ll hang from your lips,

Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

I’ll be your crying shoulder, I’ll be love’s suicide;

I’ll be better when I’m older, I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.”

♥ I’ll Be – Edwin McCain

I was listening to this song the other day while laying in bed before a nap; the lyrics are so sweet and it made me smile just hearing it. So far, nothing has changed. Well, that’s not exactly true…

While I am starting to feel a little bit better in the back area – definitely still sore beyond belief – I’m having some tummy issues now? As far as my diagnosis, nothing is known right now; apparently, I am “all over the board” and my “presentation” is just confusing. Ugh.  Right now I’m just trying to lay low and relax and rest; I mean, what else can I do, right?

Unfortunately this is my second week from school and work so whether I will be able to visit Justin this upcoming weekend is still hazy. I suppose we’re just taking one day at a time since my “condition” is so unpredictable from day to day. I guess we’ll see.

I’ll keep you updated. (:


The World Spins Madly On….


“Woke up and wished that I was dead with an aching in my head,

I lay motionless in bed; I thought of you and where you’d gone

And let the world spin madly on.

Everything that I said I’d do, like make the world brand new

And take the time for you; I just got lost and slept right through the dawn

And the world spins madly on.

I let the day go by; I always say goodbye.

I watch the stars from my windowsill;

The whole world is moving and I’m standing still….”

World Spins Madly On – The Weepies

Today has been quite a “lift” from the lows – I think I am going to survive! Luckily, I was able to find some relief for the first time in about two weeks, despite all the medicine I have been taking. My mom stayed home from work with me and took me to the neurologist. I have to admit, I was a little nervous! However, he thought that my pain may be due to my recent lack of calcium from being taken off milk and dairy products (lactose). Therefore, I’m now taking some magnesium and calcium-vitamin D supplements in hopes of bettering my muscles! I was also referred to the local physical therapy place and the sweet people there were able to work me in; I was electrically stimulated on my mid- and lower-back and afterward I was able to stand up straight! The neurologist had me sent to the hospital as well to have twenty-one vials of blood taken (even after all the blood taken earlier this week) so I felt sort of woozy after that but mom made some pizza. I did my back stretches that Dave, the physical therapist, gave me and I’m feeling better. (:

I’m still feeling pretty weak and tired (still taking the Vicodin and the muscle relaxer) but I’m so happy to be a bit better! I go back to the therapist on Thursday but I plan on continuing my exercises twice a day until then. Now all I have to worry about is making up my schoolwork but luckily, it is only the first week of the quarter and my teachers are being great! Now possibly some sleep? I think so..

^Me with my “grandma” exercises from the physical therapist. (:



Sleeping Doesn’t Come Easy…

“How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes,

I struggle to find any truth in your lies.

And now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know;

My weakness I feel I must finally show.

Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all,

But lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall.

Lend me your eyes; I can change what you see,

But your soul you must keep totally free.

Har har, har har. Har har, har har.”

The lyrics of Awake My Soul by Mumford & Sons haunt me this morning as I cannot sleep. I think the mixture of medicines I’ve been given for my back either make me extremely drowsy or keep me from getting a wink of sleep. It seems as though I am tired during the day and then awake at night – nocturnal much?  My mom came into my room this morning and laid with me for a while after she put ice on my back (say 2:30 a.m.) and at around 4:00 we got up and ate. So here I am blogging at 4:49 a.m. pretty drowsy, I must say.

Justin talked to me for a bit before bed which was nice; he’s been busy lately and we haven’t had much time to talk. I felt better after hearing his voice, even if it was only for a little while. Mom talked to me the whole time she was laying with me; neither of us could sleep. Now Jersey is beside me on the couch, completely knocked out – I’m so jealous!

Luckily, in these past few days I’ve been thinking about how lucky I am to have such amazing people in my life to take care of me and my back. My mom, first of all, has been so wonderful – taking me to the ER, getting my pills, rotating between ice and heat, talking to me and keeping my company, getting my food, etc. I’m so glad I don’t have to do it all by myself – I would probably just cry.

Hopefully I will get to feeling better soon; I hate missing work and school! On a more positive note, though, I ordered my prom dress this weekend, though, and I can’t wait for it to arrive so I can bedazzle it for May 5th (:

Here are some pictures that have made me smile lately:


Blog, Blog, Blog


Sing, Sing, Sing…

“We were barely eighteen when we crossed collective hearts,

It was cold, but it got warm when you barely crossed my eye.

And you turned, put out your hand, and you asked me to dance;

I knew nothing of romance  but it was love at second sight.

I swear when I grow up, I won’t just buy you a rose,

I will buy the flower shop and you will never be lonely.

For even if the sun stops waking up over the fields,

I will not leave, I will not leave ’til it’s on time.

So just take my hand; You know that I will never leave your side.”  ♥

This song is called The Gambler by FUN; it was introduced to me by Justin as another favorite of ours. I’m sorry for my absence recently – I have been struggling with some terrible back pain and mostly laying down and/or sleeping. Luckily, I’ve made up all my missed schoolwork for this week – whew! My mom has been a godsend during all of this, too; she got my medicine for me, took me to the doctor’s, retrieved ice/heat for me, etc. etc. etc. I’ve been lucky this week.

Last time I posted, it was Justin’s and my anniversary and I was going to spend the weekend at his house. It was a great weekend and he had started to feel better by then, luckily. We had a blast just laying around watching movies, talking, and reading some magazines. I also met his friends, Jeremy and Chris, and Shayla visited for an hour or so, too. I’ll be seeing him again on March 30 for our Cardinal Chorale concert on the 31st at Muskingum University. Can’t wait (:

Otherwise, I’m attempting to work this weekend but I called off for today – my back pain is still killing me despite the muscle relaxer and steroid ): Not sure what will happen next; I hope it goes away. It looks like spring has sprung! The weather is great, even with the spring thunderstorms, and the flowers are beginning to bloom. Before my back got really bad (last weekend), I was able to capture a few pictures of my friend spring. (: