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Where You’re Supposed to Be

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As I’m sure you’ve read…

Things in my life didn’t really go as planned. I started this blog when I was in high school – when I wanted to change the world – and when I went to college, a lot of things changed. I had the best of everything, really. I was accepted to The Ohio State University in the Honors Program. I had a supportive family. I liked my classes. I was doing research at the children’s hospital. I had a job. I was making a lot of friends. And in what seemed like a short amount of time, everything changed.

Looking back, it still feels like a rug got pulled out from beneath my feet. I had everything set right in front of me, and look at where I am now – somewhere completely different than I would’ve ever expected.

BUT:

Through the experiences I had during that period of time – good, bad, and really bad – I found what happiness really is. Yeah, that sounds corny, but hang on.

I think we have this ideal in our minds of what our lives should be like or what we should be doing, but is that really true? Life hands us a lot of different choices, many different paths from which to choose. I think we often find ourselves choosing the paths others expect of us, and then find ourselves empty.

But happiness isn’t always found in expectations. It’s not always in what people see you doing or what you would be best at doing. It’s not always with the people you should be around or in the place you should be at:

Wherever you end up, you were supposed to get there.

I was meant to go to big places – a big university, a big city. I wanted to have some monumental career, my name on a plaque or in some published article. I thought I could change the world by overexerting all of my energy into school and my job. I thought I needed people just like me all around me to push me.

The truth? I burned out. Yeah, that’s right. It didn’t work out. I didn’t meet my own expectation. So I moved back home, started going to a smaller school, found a full-time job, made new friends. And you know what?

I’M HAPPY.

That’s the real truth. I found happiness when I let go of the expectations I put on myself and when I stopped thinking about what other people expected of me. When I put away the should bes and could bes and would bes and did what I wanted to do. 

As cliche as it sounds, people – everything happens for a reason. Where you are right now at this very moment – whether you’re reading blogs to pass time waiting for an appointment or being lazy on break at work, whatever – is where you’re supposed to be. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Even if you have no idea whatsoever what you’re doing with your life. Even if you know you want to be doing something else. There’s a reason.

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My Lovely Bloggers!

Well hello there! I am so happy to be back! I’m sure you could’ve guessed; I have moved in to college and have started my classes. In fact, the first semester is almost at the half-way point, if you can believe it! To be quite honest, I LOVE Ohio State and being a college student. It has had its rough points with transitioning, learning how to study, and just finding out how to manage being independent. I guess it has been a thrill just understanding what it means to be “free!”

My floor has proved to be amazing; I love the honors dorm and the girls on this floor. It actually surprised me how much we bonded! We go out to eat meals all the time and visit in each other’s rooms; it has made the transition so much easier. I’m usually hanging out in Jamie and Rachel’s room down the hall and Sam finds her way in here too for homework time. We have had so many stupid adventures (without drugs and/or alcohol, I must say!) that we still laugh about to this day!

Classes are pretty good. Honestly, they are GE so nothing is quite intriguing except for FRENCH which I LOVE ♥ and have decided to minor in. After visiting my academic advisor way too many times, I also decided to change my major to Pre-Design which I can begin in the fall of 2013! I also got involved with a few student organizations but have only had time to really participate with two: The OSU Chapter of A Kid Again which volunteers with terminally ill children in local hospitals, and UNICEF-OSU that serves as a fundraising chapter of UNICEF for the United States’ fund. Rachel has gotten involved with me at the first A Kid Again social – blanket making – and that was a blast! I’ve also been accepted to the Buckeyes Blog team and I’m really excited to get involved with Women’s Glee and Mastersingers next semester with Jayma, too! ♥

AH, there is so much to tell but really not enough room to put it all, honestly! I love every minute – well, maybe not every minute – of college and I am so thankful for the people who have helped me through this crazy process. My parents, first of all, for supporting me from day one, moving me in, and listening to me cry about my first D. My sister from another mother, Jayma, for her constant encouragement as I screw up and find my footing. And, of course, my amazing friends Rachel, Sam, and Jamie for just being them. Oh. And my dog.♥

(L) Sam and I met President Gee outside my first OSU football game! (R) Two of my favorite girls, Rachel & Jamie, at the O.A.R. Concert!

(L) Justin came to visit and I took him to his first OSU game! ♥ (R) My roommate, Alisa, and me exploring the Short North.

(L) My beautiful and amazing R.A., Kristin! (R) On the bus for a trip to North Market!

(L) Saw President Gee while he was party-hoppin’! 🙂 (R) Did I mention I became a cheerleader? 😉

(L) Oh, you know. Singing in the rain. Inside. (R) My photography of the O.A.R. concert!

(L) Just building a roof in Rachel & Jamie’s room at 3am. (R) Sam and me in BUCKEYENATION! ♥

(L) Met a $2,000 Brutus at an antique mall in the Short North. (R) BuckeyeNation = HOME♥


And what better way to end than an amazing view from the 11th floor of Thompson Library? ♥

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Sing, Sing, Sing…

“We were barely eighteen when we crossed collective hearts,

It was cold, but it got warm when you barely crossed my eye.

And you turned, put out your hand, and you asked me to dance;

I knew nothing of romance  but it was love at second sight.

I swear when I grow up, I won’t just buy you a rose,

I will buy the flower shop and you will never be lonely.

For even if the sun stops waking up over the fields,

I will not leave, I will not leave ’til it’s on time.

So just take my hand; You know that I will never leave your side.”  ♥

This song is called The Gambler by FUN; it was introduced to me by Justin as another favorite of ours. I’m sorry for my absence recently – I have been struggling with some terrible back pain and mostly laying down and/or sleeping. Luckily, I’ve made up all my missed schoolwork for this week – whew! My mom has been a godsend during all of this, too; she got my medicine for me, took me to the doctor’s, retrieved ice/heat for me, etc. etc. etc. I’ve been lucky this week.

Last time I posted, it was Justin’s and my anniversary and I was going to spend the weekend at his house. It was a great weekend and he had started to feel better by then, luckily. We had a blast just laying around watching movies, talking, and reading some magazines. I also met his friends, Jeremy and Chris, and Shayla visited for an hour or so, too. I’ll be seeing him again on March 30 for our Cardinal Chorale concert on the 31st at Muskingum University. Can’t wait (:

Otherwise, I’m attempting to work this weekend but I called off for today – my back pain is still killing me despite the muscle relaxer and steroid ): Not sure what will happen next; I hope it goes away. It looks like spring has sprung! The weather is great, even with the spring thunderstorms, and the flowers are beginning to bloom. Before my back got really bad (last weekend), I was able to capture a few pictures of my friend spring. (: